August 5, 2012 (First Blog for August)
It has been at least a month since I stayed here in Manila and what can I say, life here isn’t as easy as back in Cavite or in Las Pinas, for the past 4 weeks I kept observing different people here in Manila, I see the distinction of each person every day, there will come a time when some random person dressed in rags would come inside the jeepney to solicit money, there are also times when you see people fighting in the streets or you are able to witness a crime and you won’t be able to do anything about it once it’s done, It’s scary being in this urban city but I’m not here to be scared, I’m here to learn, learn about my capabilities in taking a new world to explore, learn about the people of our country, I don’t want to be oblivious about my surroundings, I want to see the flow of movement which has given me inspiration and dedication to continue on. Manila really gave me a hard time when I came here on my own for the first time, I actually got lost on my way to my drop station, I went down in the wrong area then I just stood there blank-faced, luckily I found someone I could ask where was my location and good thing it was near already so I just walked there, face palmed myself that time, You’ll really learn and improve your sense of direction once you make mistakes.
Whenever I walk to school it’s still really quite frightening even if you say that there are lots of people walking with you, you wouldn’t really know what could happen next so I suggest; have a very keen eye on everything, observe everything, listen to everything and look at your things. So far I haven’t been in any near death experience and I don’t plan on being in one, I really don’t need my stuff being taken from me, I don’t want to risk the time on worrying on how I would replace the stuff that are stolen from me. Time is so precious to me right now because I don’t want to cram on homework’s and projects, so when I get the free time I make it my work time. As much as I want to go on outings with my high school friends or even my college friends, this part of my life is too important and I don’t want to miss this big part of it and I hope they would understand.
As for now I’ve settled myself in my Aunts House but not permanently, It’s only because her house is much more near to my school, It’s lonely yes but I had to make a decision that would be best for me, I try not to regret it yet but I had to make the best out of it, I hate this lifestyle really but it was for me and for my parents, all of the decision you make can’t always make everyone happy and that includes yourself, “life’s a bitch” as they say which I really agree on, make the sacrifice for the best.